Sunday, October 29, 2006
today, i asked my neighbour, neusha, to go to teens time. at first i was a little worried coz i wasnt sure whether she enjoyed it the last time she went but i was glad that she was willing to go.
took mrt with her. hahaha. first time i took mrt all the way to church. i was dying for a seat but i dont think anyone was feeling generous so i ended up standing for some time. lols.
by the time we got there, the others were already playing. i felt so awkward coz i hate being late. but then again, i hate being early too. ahahah. played captain's ball for quite some time before we played with 'water bombs'. lols. i burst one all over neusha and she decided she had to get revenge so we ran round and round. then jonathan had to get into the act and he threw one at my back and i got all wet. grrr. neusha threw one too but it wasnt too bad coz most of the impact was absorbed by my nice cottony shirt. haahah. i got my revenge on jonathan later by dumping a bottle of extremely cold water on him. lols. ^^
later had a pretty good time at the bbq. only thing was that i had to worry about when my mom would come coz she hates picking me up and she hates waiting for ppl. so i kept an eye on my phone ... most of the time. hahahaha. had a really good time and i'm glad neusha did too. she even asked me to invite her again next week. hahaha. i dont have a problem with that. =)
took mrt with her. hahaha. first time i took mrt all the way to church. i was dying for a seat but i dont think anyone was feeling generous so i ended up standing for some time. lols.
by the time we got there, the others were already playing. i felt so awkward coz i hate being late. but then again, i hate being early too. ahahah. played captain's ball for quite some time before we played with 'water bombs'. lols. i burst one all over neusha and she decided she had to get revenge so we ran round and round. then jonathan had to get into the act and he threw one at my back and i got all wet. grrr. neusha threw one too but it wasnt too bad coz most of the impact was absorbed by my nice cottony shirt. haahah. i got my revenge on jonathan later by dumping a bottle of extremely cold water on him. lols. ^^
later had a pretty good time at the bbq. only thing was that i had to worry about when my mom would come coz she hates picking me up and she hates waiting for ppl. so i kept an eye on my phone ... most of the time. hahahaha. had a really good time and i'm glad neusha did too. she even asked me to invite her again next week. hahaha. i dont have a problem with that. =)
what we could have been, 12:39 pm.
Saturday, October 28, 2006
today i went to work at my parents office. oh my god, it was soooooo dull. all i did was make spreadsheets, fill up the details, write letters and photocopy stuff. ugh. nearly died of boredom. the only good thing was i got to wear this really nice sweater coz it was so cold in the office. XD
later that evening went out for dinner. and there was pool tables at the place where i ate so i insisted on playing. hahhaa. i think i've improved since the last time i played. =) hahahah. hopefully i will play better the next time, i think.
anyways.was so upset about something but a friend managed to cheer me up. thanks. anyway, i finally got to be friends again with a person that i had a misunderstanding with.
later that evening went out for dinner. and there was pool tables at the place where i ate so i insisted on playing. hahhaa. i think i've improved since the last time i played. =) hahahah. hopefully i will play better the next time, i think.
anyways.was so upset about something but a friend managed to cheer me up. thanks. anyway, i finally got to be friends again with a person that i had a misunderstanding with.
what we could have been, 2:55 pm.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
today woke up early coz i could hear my siblings getting ready for school. hahaha. for once i dont have school and they do. lols. but managed to go back to sleep then woke up later and immediatly rushed to bathe coz i needed to get ready by ten if i wanted to pick up the movie tickets.
so went to pick up tickets and then i realised i was super early so i told mevalia and thankfully, she came early too. lols. so i smsed the guys to hurry and get to vivo coz me and mevalia were already there and hungry and did i mention that the last one to arrive would have to treat everyone else to lunch? hahaha. anyways, jiantao was the latest but we didnt care coz now our problem was to find a place that wasnt crowded so we could sit down and eat.
watched death note. it was super kewl. lols. i loved it especially the god of death. omg. i was so frightened of it at the beginning but later, he was like so adorable after all, who could resist a demon who loved apples? XD i cant wait to watch death note 2. if i'm lucky, hopefully i can watch in japan if it isnt too expensive and if there is time.
later 'bumped' into damien at the mrt station. i swear that guy's evil. hahaha. anyways, went to meet daryl before going to play pool. ermms. for those who were there, you know what happened after jiantao left so yeahh. no comment here. anyways, to all spectators, you know how badly i played. hahah. if there ever was an award to be given to me, it would be 'most amusing player' award. hahahah. i think my opponents will die laughing or i would spontaneously combust thanks to my retarded playing.
later went home was so worried for mevalia coz she went out to dinner with the THING. and the worst ? her phone battery was dead so she couldnt even answer my calls or smses. and i was panicking like crazy. poor jiantao. i roped him in too to help but in the end, i think i caused him to worry. seriously none of us actually trust the dude. hahaha. it's clear from our actions. and the fact that i told mevalia that i was ready to call anyone to help just to make sure mevalia hadnt been robbed, raped or murdered by him. hahaha.
anyways, later mevalia called me and heart attack was averted. hahaha. i felt so touched that later jian tao sorta 'scolded' mevalia for making me worried. hahahaha. thank you thank you thank you. at least someone could see how upset i was.
so went to pick up tickets and then i realised i was super early so i told mevalia and thankfully, she came early too. lols. so i smsed the guys to hurry and get to vivo coz me and mevalia were already there and hungry and did i mention that the last one to arrive would have to treat everyone else to lunch? hahaha. anyways, jiantao was the latest but we didnt care coz now our problem was to find a place that wasnt crowded so we could sit down and eat.
watched death note. it was super kewl. lols. i loved it especially the god of death. omg. i was so frightened of it at the beginning but later, he was like so adorable after all, who could resist a demon who loved apples? XD i cant wait to watch death note 2. if i'm lucky, hopefully i can watch in japan if it isnt too expensive and if there is time.
later 'bumped' into damien at the mrt station. i swear that guy's evil. hahaha. anyways, went to meet daryl before going to play pool. ermms. for those who were there, you know what happened after jiantao left so yeahh. no comment here. anyways, to all spectators, you know how badly i played. hahah. if there ever was an award to be given to me, it would be 'most amusing player' award. hahahah. i think my opponents will die laughing or i would spontaneously combust thanks to my retarded playing.
later went home was so worried for mevalia coz she went out to dinner with the THING. and the worst ? her phone battery was dead so she couldnt even answer my calls or smses. and i was panicking like crazy. poor jiantao. i roped him in too to help but in the end, i think i caused him to worry. seriously none of us actually trust the dude. hahaha. it's clear from our actions. and the fact that i told mevalia that i was ready to call anyone to help just to make sure mevalia hadnt been robbed, raped or murdered by him. hahaha.
anyways, later mevalia called me and heart attack was averted. hahaha. i felt so touched that later jian tao sorta 'scolded' mevalia for making me worried. hahahaha. thank you thank you thank you. at least someone could see how upset i was.
what we could have been, 10:35 pm.
Monday, October 23, 2006
was so stoned today. i nearly couldnt wake up to go to church. and by the time i was ready, we were rushing so i pulled out the first shirt out of my cupboard and voila~! it's too tight. as in it's-too-tight-around-the-chest-area tight. and i couldnt run up and change. blarhs.
so went to church. sat next to kat. I LOVE YOUR HAIRDO, KAT!! hahahaha. yeah, it's totally cool coz i was just thinking of doing the same style but i never get about to do so. hahaha. i'm that lazy.
anyways, was smsing a lot during service. -i'm gonna die when the phone bill comes in- then later went to lunch with debs at the YMCA. hahaha. totally weird coz it's not a place where we normally eat. but whatever. my food was totally yummy and so was debbie's. but jessie's was plain, really bland while lisa's was a little hard and dry. hmmmms. next time eat the more soupy kind of food? hahahha.
went to debbie's house later but only stayed there for awhile before going back. watched project runway. UGH. santino is such a ****. i cant believe they could even stand being in the same room. quite interesting coz my whole family was watching at the same time. hahaha. normally we dont like the same shows.
later went out to black canyon to eat dinner. the food was so BLEAHS. i mean, it's not the type i like. and it wasnt exactly up to standard.
GUESS WHAT?? i'm going to Japan at the end of december and i wont be back until school reopens!! whoooooooooooo!! JAPAN HERE I COME!! hahahhaa. cant wait to go see my japanese friends and to go shopping.
so went to church. sat next to kat. I LOVE YOUR HAIRDO, KAT!! hahahaha. yeah, it's totally cool coz i was just thinking of doing the same style but i never get about to do so. hahaha. i'm that lazy.
anyways, was smsing a lot during service. -i'm gonna die when the phone bill comes in- then later went to lunch with debs at the YMCA. hahaha. totally weird coz it's not a place where we normally eat. but whatever. my food was totally yummy and so was debbie's. but jessie's was plain, really bland while lisa's was a little hard and dry. hmmmms. next time eat the more soupy kind of food? hahahha.
went to debbie's house later but only stayed there for awhile before going back. watched project runway. UGH. santino is such a ****. i cant believe they could even stand being in the same room. quite interesting coz my whole family was watching at the same time. hahaha. normally we dont like the same shows.
later went out to black canyon to eat dinner. the food was so BLEAHS. i mean, it's not the type i like. and it wasnt exactly up to standard.
GUESS WHAT?? i'm going to Japan at the end of december and i wont be back until school reopens!! whoooooooooooo!! JAPAN HERE I COME!! hahahhaa. cant wait to go see my japanese friends and to go shopping.
what we could have been, 11:15 am.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
hais. today was quite blarhs. i mean, that morning i sat with jian tao and yehfri coz we wanted to talk about the chinese orchestra thingy. i mean we were supposed to be backstage crew. but of course, like co, it's old. so the traditions are old too. GIRLS CANT BE ROADIES. yuppps. like whatever. of course, someone saw and now he's trying to 'punish' me by showing me attitude. lame.
sat in 3/4 during mt. hahhaa. sat next to mevalia coz i wasnt close to a lot of ppl in that class. well, obviously, i mean, i'm 3/6er not a 3/4ee. hahahhaa. anyways, i think i stole some asshole's normal seat. lols. i know he's angry with me but i couldnt care less coz I DISLIKE HIM. waahahahha.
later did after school duty with mevalia, yehfri, jian tao and zhang chong. it was damn fun at the beginning. then later all of us slack and stood around and talked. hahaha. we're super lame, right?
went to vivocity. my god, it's HUMONGOUS. we got lost before finding the cineplex but the movie we wanted to watch was full up already. sad really. so we went over to ps. but also full. so we went to eat at yoshinoya's before walking around. really dull but i didnt really mind i got to spend time with my best friends. =)
sat in 3/4 during mt. hahhaa. sat next to mevalia coz i wasnt close to a lot of ppl in that class. well, obviously, i mean, i'm 3/6er not a 3/4ee. hahahhaa. anyways, i think i stole some asshole's normal seat. lols. i know he's angry with me but i couldnt care less coz I DISLIKE HIM. waahahahha.
later did after school duty with mevalia, yehfri, jian tao and zhang chong. it was damn fun at the beginning. then later all of us slack and stood around and talked. hahaha. we're super lame, right?
went to vivocity. my god, it's HUMONGOUS. we got lost before finding the cineplex but the movie we wanted to watch was full up already. sad really. so we went over to ps. but also full. so we went to eat at yoshinoya's before walking around. really dull but i didnt really mind i got to spend time with my best friends. =)
what we could have been, 12:29 pm.
i'm really pissed off with someone. i mean, i've been trying to compromise but if all he wants is to keep taking and taking, i'm quitting. i'm not going always give in to you just because you're my 'big brother'.
like COME ON MAN. you wanted some space and time for your girlfriend and her friends and i did it without protest. i mean, i want my own me-time and time-with-other-friends-besides-you time. but you turned it against me and ACCUSED me of showing you attitude and betraying you. look. just becuase you fought with someone and have become somewhat enemies, that doesnt mean that i have to be his enemy too. i can make my own decisions and friends, thank you very much.
and what's hilarious? i felt SORRY, yes, SORRY for scolding you back so i wanted to apologise but i guess you weren't interested neither were you bothered enough to even listen. i wasnt even expecting an apology back. all i needed was five minutes of your time to listen but apparently you couldnt even afford to spare your 'little sister' FIVE STINKING MINUTES.
if that's the case, then piss off. i dont need you and i DEFINITELY waaaaaaaaay better off without you.
like COME ON MAN. you wanted some space and time for your girlfriend and her friends and i did it without protest. i mean, i want my own me-time and time-with-other-friends-besides-you time. but you turned it against me and ACCUSED me of showing you attitude and betraying you. look. just becuase you fought with someone and have become somewhat enemies, that doesnt mean that i have to be his enemy too. i can make my own decisions and friends, thank you very much.
and what's hilarious? i felt SORRY, yes, SORRY for scolding you back so i wanted to apologise but i guess you weren't interested neither were you bothered enough to even listen. i wasnt even expecting an apology back. all i needed was five minutes of your time to listen but apparently you couldnt even afford to spare your 'little sister' FIVE STINKING MINUTES.
if that's the case, then piss off. i dont need you and i DEFINITELY waaaaaaaaay better off without you.
what we could have been, 12:17 pm.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
sometimes i'm really tempted to ask that idiot to pizz off. i mean come on, our matters isnt of your business and the only reason you know is coz your nosy darling told you and you 'sympathised' with the so-called bully-ee/victim. like RIIIIIIIGHT, puh~lease. save me all the bullshit. no problem if you think you're so great, i dont mind quitting and handing the position over to someone else. then i can spend time with my friends.
anyways. today like panic all over the place. coz firstly suppose to see miss chan during reading period to check bio paper but she never appeared so i went off to sit with damien to study for our exams. i cant believe it but lester also took up pure geog. so now it's two history and two geog students. lols. i suppose you could call it either a blessing or a curse. anyways, crazy mr alex. dragged us down to the detention room to take our paper. so lame. the paper was okay. i mean i could answer the question except i didnt have any idea how to write one part but i just did it anyway. later we just sat around and discussed for awhile before going up.
AND I FOUND OUT I MISSED OUT ON THE ACTION. apparently qihui slapped nat. lols. no offense but those two have some serious screws loose. the friction between them.... -grins- VERY interesting. anyways, now nat wants qihui to either apologise in front of the whole class or to call his mom and apologise. i'm like totally whatever coz one's a temperamental bitch, the other's an insensitive, rude jerk.
later while waiting for mevalia, was talking with yehfri and jiantao. trying to arrange to watch movie tomorrow. somehow, i dont miss someone's presence and i dont mind for once coz i dont always have to feel embarrassed should they stalk off halfway. so anyways, tomorrow we're gonna watch death note. yayayay!! but i'll probably end up screaming and hiding my face in whoever's shoulder who sits next to me. hahahaha. how sad is that? hahahhaa.
today walked to bus stop with mevalia again. coz both of us are sad ppl who dont have food at home. we bought noodles. BUT mevalia had to play my fave song, showstopper by danity kane. so i ended up singing half the time. hahaha. i think some of my other friends heard me singing. erm, embarrassing. coz my singing sucks. hahhaha. XD
anyways. today like panic all over the place. coz firstly suppose to see miss chan during reading period to check bio paper but she never appeared so i went off to sit with damien to study for our exams. i cant believe it but lester also took up pure geog. so now it's two history and two geog students. lols. i suppose you could call it either a blessing or a curse. anyways, crazy mr alex. dragged us down to the detention room to take our paper. so lame. the paper was okay. i mean i could answer the question except i didnt have any idea how to write one part but i just did it anyway. later we just sat around and discussed for awhile before going up.
AND I FOUND OUT I MISSED OUT ON THE ACTION. apparently qihui slapped nat. lols. no offense but those two have some serious screws loose. the friction between them.... -grins- VERY interesting. anyways, now nat wants qihui to either apologise in front of the whole class or to call his mom and apologise. i'm like totally whatever coz one's a temperamental bitch, the other's an insensitive, rude jerk.
later while waiting for mevalia, was talking with yehfri and jiantao. trying to arrange to watch movie tomorrow. somehow, i dont miss someone's presence and i dont mind for once coz i dont always have to feel embarrassed should they stalk off halfway. so anyways, tomorrow we're gonna watch death note. yayayay!! but i'll probably end up screaming and hiding my face in whoever's shoulder who sits next to me. hahahaha. how sad is that? hahahhaa.
today walked to bus stop with mevalia again. coz both of us are sad ppl who dont have food at home. we bought noodles. BUT mevalia had to play my fave song, showstopper by danity kane. so i ended up singing half the time. hahaha. i think some of my other friends heard me singing. erm, embarrassing. coz my singing sucks. hahhaha. XD
what we could have been, 10:31 pm.
Monday, October 16, 2006
wheeeeeee. i felt so good today. managed to sleep in until past noon. well, i woke up a few times but i drifted back to sleep. it was soooooooo good coz for once i managed to sleep off my exhaustion. it was totally awesome, to just say 'go away world' and hide under the bedcovers until i was ready to get up.
later my dad ordered in german food coz my mom's sick so we couldnt go out for lunch and besides, i only woke up AFTER he decided on what food to eat. haahahha. i managed to get my share of the meal changed from bratwurst to beef goulash. whooooos. werner's oven 's beef goulash is sooooooo tasty. i love it. yummy!!
later spent an hour studying history and watched one tree hill season1 with my sis before playing the sims2 until 5. then i began typing my stories again. hahaha. it's very addictive only thing i need to learn to finish the stories that i've started. i've got about 3 dozen unfinished stories and six chapters of a story. yippees.
was so excited when my fave chinese show started but it was the last episode so i was kinda sad. and the ENDING was so RETARDED. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. i could have written a better ending than what they did. but obviously mine would be more biased coz i'm quite partial to a Boss Rong and Cuilong romance rather than a Jinkeng and Cuilong romance. ahahah. sorry but their first love issue they have is totally pathetic. BLAHS.
later my dad ordered in german food coz my mom's sick so we couldnt go out for lunch and besides, i only woke up AFTER he decided on what food to eat. haahahha. i managed to get my share of the meal changed from bratwurst to beef goulash. whooooos. werner's oven 's beef goulash is sooooooo tasty. i love it. yummy!!
later spent an hour studying history and watched one tree hill season1 with my sis before playing the sims2 until 5. then i began typing my stories again. hahaha. it's very addictive only thing i need to learn to finish the stories that i've started. i've got about 3 dozen unfinished stories and six chapters of a story. yippees.
was so excited when my fave chinese show started but it was the last episode so i was kinda sad. and the ENDING was so RETARDED. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. i could have written a better ending than what they did. but obviously mine would be more biased coz i'm quite partial to a Boss Rong and Cuilong romance rather than a Jinkeng and Cuilong romance. ahahah. sorry but their first love issue they have is totally pathetic. BLAHS.
what we could have been, 12:33 pm.
Sunday, October 15, 2006
ARGHX !!! stupid jimmy. stop posting that nonsense on your msn nick!! it totally isnt true. and by the way, those two ppl you mentioned? they're just friends, nothing more. just because i sms them doesnt mean i like them or something !?!?!?!?
anyways, today was totally dull. was feeling ill in the morning so i stoned in the room until lunchtime. hais. played sims2 like siao. hahaha. it's so damn fun to control the innocent sims and then kill them. mwahahahaha. XD actually i dont kill them, i just cause them to suffer from severe trauma until they ultimately die. wheeeeeeeeeees. evil dictator in the making. tata!! i need to terrorize the people of Valley, my self-created town notorious for chaos, scandals, lust and EVIL. lols. and the characters look so innocent.
on a more sombre note, my favourite chinese/cantonese(?) [seriously, i dunno the dialect, i read the ENGLISH subtitles] show will end tomorrow. i'm really sad coz i support Boss Rong and Cuilong to get together. heehee. the show looks like it'll end the same as 'the sound of music'. ya know, the running away into the hills. blah blah blah.
anyways, today was totally dull. was feeling ill in the morning so i stoned in the room until lunchtime. hais. played sims2 like siao. hahaha. it's so damn fun to control the innocent sims and then kill them. mwahahahaha. XD actually i dont kill them, i just cause them to suffer from severe trauma until they ultimately die. wheeeeeeeeeees. evil dictator in the making. tata!! i need to terrorize the people of Valley, my self-created town notorious for chaos, scandals, lust and EVIL. lols. and the characters look so innocent.
on a more sombre note, my favourite chinese/cantonese(?) [seriously, i dunno the dialect, i read the ENGLISH subtitles] show will end tomorrow. i'm really sad coz i support Boss Rong and Cuilong to get together. heehee. the show looks like it'll end the same as 'the sound of music'. ya know, the running away into the hills. blah blah blah.
what we could have been, 2:11 pm.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
today i was like totally sleepy but i had to wake up early for class. dang it all. the day i dont have to go to school but i have to study for history coz my paper's on thursday. how sad is that ? hahah.
anyways i felt so tired that i told mevalia i was too lazy to go out. hahaha. i think she kinda got worried that i would abandon her. i nearly died waiting for the stupid bus. it's so undependable. i ended up waiting for soooooooo long. i thought i would be early coz the meeting place was only a few stops away from the mrt near my house. in the end, when i got there, Mevalia was the only one there yet and i got there slightly past two. then we stood there for ages waiting coz yehfri thought we were meeting at 2.30 instead of 2. and we were panicking coz the movie was supposed to start at 2.30pm. so we were calling and smsing him nonstop to hurry him.
the movie, Scoop, was retarded. it didnt make much sense to be honest. and because of the teasing and ribbing we gave mevalia, jimmy and yehfri didnt exactly wanna sit next to her. hahaha. the fear of being killed is very very effective. anyways me and mevalia were practically freezing in the theatre coz we were wearing sleeveless, and we were comparing who was colder. hahaha. thankfully yehfri brought a jacket and he generously lent it to me when i asked. -phew-
then later we went to play the arcade. went to play house of dead 4. once again, i'm pretty bad at it. then later went to play the crazy bishy-bashy game which me and mevalia kept wailing over coz we always end up losing every few games. super lame but that's us. hahahah. then later i challenged yehfri to play time crisis since he liked the game and i didnt mind playing it. too bad i died pretty fast. hahahaha. then we all decided to play those car racing games before we left. only when jimmy's machine was busted so only me, mevalia and yehfri were playing. it was pretty obvious that yehfri was gonna win coz he spin-tailed, or whatever it's called, mevalia's car and she was like half a lap behind us already. and i couldnt keep up since i had no idea how to use the manual gear shift thingy. but at the last moment, my car was an inch ahead of yehfri's car. hahahhaa. YAY!! i beat ya!! wheeeeeeee. lols. i'm was behaving so childishly then.
later we had to rush back coz mevalia had to go back coz she needed to change before she went off with her friends for some bbq. and i had to go to a friend's house for a party. felt so bad for leaving the two boys. luckily, yehfri had to go home and jimmy didnt mind following me to look for a present for Alex so we went to junction 8.
had so much fun at the party but i was feeling kinda tired too coz of the walking and running around here and there during the party but hey, it was cool and enjoyable.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEX!! I LOVE YA!!
anyways i felt so tired that i told mevalia i was too lazy to go out. hahaha. i think she kinda got worried that i would abandon her. i nearly died waiting for the stupid bus. it's so undependable. i ended up waiting for soooooooo long. i thought i would be early coz the meeting place was only a few stops away from the mrt near my house. in the end, when i got there, Mevalia was the only one there yet and i got there slightly past two. then we stood there for ages waiting coz yehfri thought we were meeting at 2.30 instead of 2. and we were panicking coz the movie was supposed to start at 2.30pm. so we were calling and smsing him nonstop to hurry him.
the movie, Scoop, was retarded. it didnt make much sense to be honest. and because of the teasing and ribbing we gave mevalia, jimmy and yehfri didnt exactly wanna sit next to her. hahaha. the fear of being killed is very very effective. anyways me and mevalia were practically freezing in the theatre coz we were wearing sleeveless, and we were comparing who was colder. hahaha. thankfully yehfri brought a jacket and he generously lent it to me when i asked. -phew-
then later we went to play the arcade. went to play house of dead 4. once again, i'm pretty bad at it. then later went to play the crazy bishy-bashy game which me and mevalia kept wailing over coz we always end up losing every few games. super lame but that's us. hahahah. then later i challenged yehfri to play time crisis since he liked the game and i didnt mind playing it. too bad i died pretty fast. hahahaha. then we all decided to play those car racing games before we left. only when jimmy's machine was busted so only me, mevalia and yehfri were playing. it was pretty obvious that yehfri was gonna win coz he spin-tailed, or whatever it's called, mevalia's car and she was like half a lap behind us already. and i couldnt keep up since i had no idea how to use the manual gear shift thingy. but at the last moment, my car was an inch ahead of yehfri's car. hahahhaa. YAY!! i beat ya!! wheeeeeeee. lols. i'm was behaving so childishly then.
later we had to rush back coz mevalia had to go back coz she needed to change before she went off with her friends for some bbq. and i had to go to a friend's house for a party. felt so bad for leaving the two boys. luckily, yehfri had to go home and jimmy didnt mind following me to look for a present for Alex so we went to junction 8.
had so much fun at the party but i was feeling kinda tired too coz of the walking and running around here and there during the party but hey, it was cool and enjoyable.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEX!! I LOVE YA!!
what we could have been, 2:43 pm.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
blahs. today those in the pure science stream have officially finished their exams. except those in pure bio that is. hahahaha. too bad then. SIANS. most of my friends are done with their exams and i cant celebrate with them coz I'M not done with mine. mine finishes tomorrow which by the way, i still have an exam after school. how unfair is that? BLEAHS.
aaaaaaaaanyways. i'm counting down till my liberation. hahaha. ONE DAY, ppl!! just ONE MORE DAY. wooots. i'm already celebrating ahead. hahahaha. i looooooooooooooove post-exam celebrations. PAR~TAY!!!
aaaaaaaaanyways. i'm counting down till my liberation. hahaha. ONE DAY, ppl!! just ONE MORE DAY. wooots. i'm already celebrating ahead. hahahaha. i looooooooooooooove post-exam celebrations. PAR~TAY!!!
what we could have been, 9:37 pm.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
oh yeahh, i've been so addicted to 'call me when you're sober' and i've been watching nonstop. (thanks to the hot guy with the wolfish qualities) anyways i found out that the hottie was a british actor called oliver goodwill. oh man, baby. HOT STUFF, man!!
anyways. i'm DOOMED. i couldnt finish my physics paper in time. and the fact that i couldnt answer many questions wasnt exactly good either. i'm sorry, Z. despite all your efforts, i dont think i can do it. bleahs. chemistry wasnt too bad i guess. i mean, i did finish it although i had a couple of questions that i'm not entirely sure is right. ahahaha.
anyways. i'm DOOMED. i couldnt finish my physics paper in time. and the fact that i couldnt answer many questions wasnt exactly good either. i'm sorry, Z. despite all your efforts, i dont think i can do it. bleahs. chemistry wasnt too bad i guess. i mean, i did finish it although i had a couple of questions that i'm not entirely sure is right. ahahaha.
what we could have been, 9:17 am.
Monday, October 09, 2006
i'm so sory. i saw the hurt on your face but i cant help it. i've been pushed down and ignored for too long. i've learnt to push you away. i wont talk lest i reveal any information. tha last thing i want is for you to know anything.
i feel like i'm a kid again. i've been wrongfooted and there's nothing i say or do that can help defend my case. and i dont try. i've learnt from past experience that it wont work and i wont try.
i tried so hard to impress you, to make you proud but everything comes to naught coz it doesnt ever matter. you don't notice my efforts, you only see my flaws. i may keep quiet but that doesnt mean i'm void of emotion. in fact, i cry, i bleed and for a moment i fate myself.
perhaps i should take an eternal vow of silence if it pleases you so much. we should go back to the famous saying 'children should be seen, not heard'. i build an ice wall around my heart and a mask to hide behind coz i dont want to hurt anymore.
you can tell me 'mummy and daddy love you' but i dont want to believe anymore. everything was once upon a fairytale and i've outgrown that. i'm moving on and i'm glad to leave all this sh*t behind.
i feel like i'm a kid again. i've been wrongfooted and there's nothing i say or do that can help defend my case. and i dont try. i've learnt from past experience that it wont work and i wont try.
i tried so hard to impress you, to make you proud but everything comes to naught coz it doesnt ever matter. you don't notice my efforts, you only see my flaws. i may keep quiet but that doesnt mean i'm void of emotion. in fact, i cry, i bleed and for a moment i fate myself.
perhaps i should take an eternal vow of silence if it pleases you so much. we should go back to the famous saying 'children should be seen, not heard'. i build an ice wall around my heart and a mask to hide behind coz i dont want to hurt anymore.
you can tell me 'mummy and daddy love you' but i dont want to believe anymore. everything was once upon a fairytale and i've outgrown that. i'm moving on and i'm glad to leave all this sh*t behind.
what we could have been, 2:53 pm.
Sunday, October 08, 2006
i feel so happy coz these past few days, i've been keeping in contact with my primary school friends. all ya girls. oh man, it seems like just yesterday when we squabbled over where to sit and who we disliked at the moment.
i really miss lea, steph and george in particular. i guess they were the ones i really felt like sisters with. probably will meet up one day but as of now, i am the last one to finish their exams so i'm feeling kinda like a loser coz i'm not studying. hahaha.
they've changed so much and it's been 3 years only. oh gosh, i really really love you gals. how could i have neglected to keep in contact more often? anyways, i feel so weird. i think i'm the only one who hasnt changed much since p6. i'm still in between phases of tomboyishness and being feminine. kyaaah.
hahaha. cant wait to see ya all. but for now, i need to study study study!!! lols. especially for my sciences, math and art. it's still incomplete. gaaaaaah!!
i really miss lea, steph and george in particular. i guess they were the ones i really felt like sisters with. probably will meet up one day but as of now, i am the last one to finish their exams so i'm feeling kinda like a loser coz i'm not studying. hahaha.
they've changed so much and it's been 3 years only. oh gosh, i really really love you gals. how could i have neglected to keep in contact more often? anyways, i feel so weird. i think i'm the only one who hasnt changed much since p6. i'm still in between phases of tomboyishness and being feminine. kyaaah.
hahaha. cant wait to see ya all. but for now, i need to study study study!!! lols. especially for my sciences, math and art. it's still incomplete. gaaaaaah!!
what we could have been, 3:16 am.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
urgh. great, i'm sick now. it's all this haze that's making me ill. bleahs. so now i'm just coughing up chunks of my lung. XD hahaha. joking joking. but it feels like it. my throat feels like it's got cotton wool and a knife in it.
not that bad a day i guess. i really love chinese b. it rocks. we ended an hour earlier so we, the 5 clb students, sat around in the canteen studying. sort of anyways. i really think we were joking around and just teasing one another rather than studying during majority of the one hour. i'm kinda worried about paper 1 coz i wasnt really sure of what to write for the compo. i could think it out in english but it's for my CHINESE exam so obviously, it wasnt gonna work out.
was feeling a bit ill during the paper 2. normally when i fall asleep, i wake up at the slightest bit of noise but funnily enough, i slept through most of the noises despite having heard them. i do recall like the scraping of chairs and someone behind me changing leg positions which caused quite a fair bit of vibrations.
later i passed out for almost four hours over. so it's official. i'm am sick and it should not be the case coz my exams are coming and I NEED TO STUDY. grrrrrr.
by the way, did i say that i'm complete addicted to nelly furtado's 'maneater'. it keeps playing in my head. kinda hard when i feel like i'm suffering a hangover thanks to the fever and cold. blahs.
not that bad a day i guess. i really love chinese b. it rocks. we ended an hour earlier so we, the 5 clb students, sat around in the canteen studying. sort of anyways. i really think we were joking around and just teasing one another rather than studying during majority of the one hour. i'm kinda worried about paper 1 coz i wasnt really sure of what to write for the compo. i could think it out in english but it's for my CHINESE exam so obviously, it wasnt gonna work out.
was feeling a bit ill during the paper 2. normally when i fall asleep, i wake up at the slightest bit of noise but funnily enough, i slept through most of the noises despite having heard them. i do recall like the scraping of chairs and someone behind me changing leg positions which caused quite a fair bit of vibrations.
later i passed out for almost four hours over. so it's official. i'm am sick and it should not be the case coz my exams are coming and I NEED TO STUDY. grrrrrr.
by the way, did i say that i'm complete addicted to nelly furtado's 'maneater'. it keeps playing in my head. kinda hard when i feel like i'm suffering a hangover thanks to the fever and cold. blahs.
what we could have been, 1:06 pm.
Friday, October 06, 2006
i finally got a break today. well, kinda. i mean i had a tummy ache so i didnt have to take pe today. sat around with nabeelah, almas, filzah, parames and yan ting. just talking and gossiping away like girls would. =) see? i do actually have a feminine side. just that i dont make it a point to publicize it. hahahah.
anyways, later was quite peaceful during art coz i had finished some possibilities and developments, although i still need to complete it and make it look good by tuesday. quite rushed, i have to admit. i need to 'chiong' and complete it soon.
jacky and chris seriously need to get out more, especially jacky. he's such a PERV. ew. look elsewhere please. thanks. i'm sure you can enjoy your time with your 'wife' at home so NO PUBLIC AFFECTIONS, please. hahahah. oh my gosh, i think they really are decent although they can be idiots at times.
woooots. after such a long time after failing my physics, i FINALLY PASSED and with rather good marks i have to add. thanks to my extra motivation to do well and some help. thanks Z, i really really appreciate your encouragement. -mwahs-
anyways, had a really funny experience during physics/chem lessons today. yeahh. kinda stupid. well, we (meaning me, shaun, mark, sajetah and nat) were talking when suddenly mark tried to .. ermm ... 'privately' ask me a question. of course, it got blown out of proportion and was obviously over-exaggerrated. yeahh. which by the way, I'M STILL REJECTING YOU, MARK!! XD hahahahha. lame, i know but whatever.
3/3, you really had to embarrass me coz one of my favourite teachers overheard the 'conversation'. thta is, if you count five or more ppl screaming my name and comments while i walked past their class back to mine. then, yeahh. hahahhaa.
really nervous and excited coz chinese exam is tomorrow. first time i'll be taking clb for exams so i wonder how it'll be like. i wanna do well coz i really love clb. actually i love languages but i think my affinity with chinese is just really bad.
anyways, later was quite peaceful during art coz i had finished some possibilities and developments, although i still need to complete it and make it look good by tuesday. quite rushed, i have to admit. i need to 'chiong' and complete it soon.
jacky and chris seriously need to get out more, especially jacky. he's such a PERV. ew. look elsewhere please. thanks. i'm sure you can enjoy your time with your 'wife' at home so NO PUBLIC AFFECTIONS, please. hahahah. oh my gosh, i think they really are decent although they can be idiots at times.
woooots. after such a long time after failing my physics, i FINALLY PASSED and with rather good marks i have to add. thanks to my extra motivation to do well and some help. thanks Z, i really really appreciate your encouragement. -mwahs-
anyways, had a really funny experience during physics/chem lessons today. yeahh. kinda stupid. well, we (meaning me, shaun, mark, sajetah and nat) were talking when suddenly mark tried to .. ermm ... 'privately' ask me a question. of course, it got blown out of proportion and was obviously over-exaggerrated. yeahh. which by the way, I'M STILL REJECTING YOU, MARK!! XD hahahahha. lame, i know but whatever.
3/3, you really had to embarrass me coz one of my favourite teachers overheard the 'conversation'. thta is, if you count five or more ppl screaming my name and comments while i walked past their class back to mine. then, yeahh. hahahhaa.
really nervous and excited coz chinese exam is tomorrow. first time i'll be taking clb for exams so i wonder how it'll be like. i wanna do well coz i really love clb. actually i love languages but i think my affinity with chinese is just really bad.
what we could have been, 1:04 pm.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
sometimes i just wish i could be the ignorant child i once was. to be cocooned in my daddy's hugs and mommy's kisses and all those sweet stuff. to be loved and trusted by everyone. the most important and crucial decision i had to make was whether i wanted to use the colour pencils or the crayons, play with dolls or cars. blah blah blah. that sort of minor decisions.
today was so mentally challenging and exhausting. is it already bad enough part of my 'job' is to play the bad cop to my friends? nooooooo, it has to be worst as i have to be the 'shitwork' manager as well. if it's a job well done, the praise goes to them. if it's crappy, then only the BLAME is mine.
i'm so tired of this crap. leave me alone. i dont need your problems on top of my own!!
today was so mentally challenging and exhausting. is it already bad enough part of my 'job' is to play the bad cop to my friends? nooooooo, it has to be worst as i have to be the 'shitwork' manager as well. if it's a job well done, the praise goes to them. if it's crappy, then only the BLAME is mine.
i'm so tired of this crap. leave me alone. i dont need your problems on top of my own!!
what we could have been, 1:55 pm.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
had a really long day today. had history class in the morning. i was so sleepy and it was raining so heavily which didnt help coz it made the lesson seem to stretch longer. i nearly cried out of boredom for once.
later had physics class too. omg, i really love my class. it's damn fun and it's a good way to destress although i have pretty poor memory for science. hahahaa. anyways that doesnt mean i still dislike science. i'm only having a temporary truce until i burn the books after o levels next year. hahaha.
anyways, was running around like a mad chicken trying to think of how to wrap up ngai kay's and avriel's presents. i mean, it's kinda hard to give presents to people you're not close with. then it's actually kinda awkward but since we've been classmates for over two years. i dont mind forking out this extra expenses.
having cadbury hot chocolate now. it's like totally sweet and yummy. maybe it's because i'm running a temperature that's why i dont actually enjoy that much. sighs. but it's so tasty anyways.
i'm so confused. you keep confusing me, z. one minute you're the adult. next minute you're just my friend. another minute, you're someone else. stop playing these games and be the real you. i'm getting tired of pretending.
later had physics class too. omg, i really love my class. it's damn fun and it's a good way to destress although i have pretty poor memory for science. hahahaa. anyways that doesnt mean i still dislike science. i'm only having a temporary truce until i burn the books after o levels next year. hahaha.
anyways, was running around like a mad chicken trying to think of how to wrap up ngai kay's and avriel's presents. i mean, it's kinda hard to give presents to people you're not close with. then it's actually kinda awkward but since we've been classmates for over two years. i dont mind forking out this extra expenses.
having cadbury hot chocolate now. it's like totally sweet and yummy. maybe it's because i'm running a temperature that's why i dont actually enjoy that much. sighs. but it's so tasty anyways.
i'm so confused. you keep confusing me, z. one minute you're the adult. next minute you're just my friend. another minute, you're someone else. stop playing these games and be the real you. i'm getting tired of pretending.
what we could have been, 12:33 pm.
